Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
While pregnant, the Eucharist is even more miraculous. At around 10 weeks, the placenta is fully formed and begins sharing all the food the mom eats with the baby. So each time I receive the Body of Christ, the very substance is shared with our little ones. In a tangible way, I get to share Jesus with our son and daughter. What a unique privilege! I am incredibly thankful for the opportunity to carry these two little miracles, and am humbled to get this opportunity each week to introduce them to our Lord.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
While I have never been anywhere close to this point before, I have been pregnant previously. Three times we conceived a child, and three times my body failed. No matter how many times people tell you it wasn't your fault, human nature wants to assign blame. Getting past that blame is turning into the biggest obstacle for me in this pregnancy. The anxiety is immense, often overwhelming. Each day feels like a bit of a battle to believe.
I am incredibly thankful for sweet Andrew and the encouragement he provides, and I love love love each little nudge I feel that reminds me that these precious babies are growing. But I am also aware that being pregnant doesn't "heal" infertility, and it definitely doesn't erase the scars from previous battles. Like the scars we get as kids on the playground, these will hopefully fade over time, but they will always be present as reminders of the road we traveled to get to this new place.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Fast forward to Wednesday. I literally felt like I had been hit by a truck. On Thursday I called the doctor, and they recommended I come in for testing the next morning. That afternoon, I had my first Braxton Hicks contractions--an unwelcome surprise. The nurse said they were fine as long as there were no more than 4 per hour. When 4:30 finally rolled around, I drug myself home and decided to take the dogs for a walk to try to up my energy level a bit. At the very end of the walk, Stella hurt her paw. Cue the emergency vet. Stella got sedated, which ended up giving her just enough rest to be magically cured. With Stella conked out, I thought I could rest for the remainder fo the evening. Not so fast. Around 9:00, I had three strong contractions within 15 minutes, so we called the on-call doctor. His recommendation? Take a 30 minute bath and drink 2 liters of water. I was a little nervous about this prescription, but gave it a try anyway and was able to fall straight to sleep after.
Friday morning we gave Stella a dose of her medicine, then I headed to the doctor before work. I still had an infection--the antibiotic I had been taking for a week hadn't worked--and I told the nurse about the contractions the night before. Once the doctor got out of surgery, he decided he wanted me to come in at 2:00. When the nurse called to tell me, I informed her of the shooting pains in my back. Her response: how quickly can you be here. For the second Friday in a row, I was checked for pre-term labor, and again got a good report. All the symptoms were most likely caused by the infection.
I went home for just a few minutes to catch my breath while my new prescription was filled, and Stella got terrible diarrhea. I spent the next 30 minutes cleaning her. Needless to say, she didn't get any more medicine. A wonderful end to a wonderful day.
I'm sure this is just a small glimpse into the sometimes chaotic life of a twin parent, but it was exhausting nonetheless. I guess practice makes perfect!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
I'm starting to feel more movements, and I just love their little squirms. This past Saturday during Andrew's sister's graduation, one baby in particular was going crazy and Andrew felt them move for the first time! So precious! I'm still having a little trouble telling when it's the babies, but I am sure they will make it clear fairly soon.
After I had a mini meltdown about being totally unprepared (I blame it on the pregnancy hormones), we got a great start on the nursery. We ordered bedding, sheets, changing pad covers, mobiles, and furniture...I am so excited for this project! We ended up purchasing a floor model of the dresser we wanted, so we got to take it home and put it in its new space. I've been sitting in the floor staring at the dresser dreaming of all the diapers we will change. We cannot wait!
Friday, May 13, 2011
On a completely different note, we did some registering this week. I thought I was unprepared when we registered for our wedding, but I had no idea...there is so much baby stuff! How do we know which pacifiers the Shafer babies will prefer? Despite being totally overwhelmed, we had a great time dreaming about and planning for our little ones' arrival.
Monday, May 9, 2011
We had our big anatomy scan this morning, and to say I was nervous would be an understatement. I was an absolute wreck! I felt like I did with those first few ultrasounds, just knowing that something was going to go wrong. Thankfully, though, the twins looked great. The sonographer immediately confirmed that Baby A is a boy and Baby B is a girl--time to start decorating! She then went over each baby with a fine toothed comb, looking at everything from brain lobes to heart chambers to fingers and toes. Everything checked out great!!! They couldn't see either babies' spine because of their positions, so we have to go again in four weeks (which I totally don't mind), but everything they could see looked perfect.
With all the good reports, I'm starting to feel like this may actually happen...that we may actually have a son and a daughter in our home this fall. Thanks be to God!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Here's the 18 week twin bump in all its glory:
Above is what I look like walking around in public now. I'm pretty sure people are beginning to know I'm pregnant just by looking at me, though it depends largely on what I'm wearing. Hoping this growing bump means healthy, growing babies inside!
Sunday, May 1, 2011
We were able to record our ultrasound last week, but I got so caught up in the boy & girl excitement that I forgot to share with you all. Here's a link to the portion of the ultrasound where you can see/hear the heartbeats: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvYMeAiKBlY. First up is Baby A, our boy, then it switches to Baby B, our girl. The final images where you can see the baby's spine and ribs are the boy. Enjoy!